JUNE 6th

Son, why are you inspired to write when I am speaking to you right now?

I was only trying to tell people what I wanted them to hear about you.

Son, tell me why are doing this...

Father, I have been without you for so long that I wanted to share to others the joy I have for you.

Son, why don't you ask Me to teach you to hear what I want to say to you?

Father, you ask me questions that you know the answer to. I always feel I have no one who understands me. I ask You speak to me, but then I become confused and don't understand what You are saying to me.

Son, why do you feel I am not speaking to you the words I want you to hear?

Because I don't hear you speak to me the things I ask you to speak to me about. I have no idea why it has become so hard for me to hear you. I simply want questions in my life answered but you refuse to answer them. I don't get it, Father. You say, "ask and you shall receive. Seek and you will find."

Son, is the student greater than the Master? Can a baby explain to his or her parents the wisdom of life? Can a baby cub teach her mother how to protect her young? These things are not possible. Son, the animals in nature hear My voice in everyday events; yet my sons and daughters don't hear my voice in their hearts.

Father, I don't understand what you are saying. I don't understand what you are saying. You are speaking to me words that make no sense. I asked you a question and I'm not getting an answer.

Son, and what answer is it that you are looking for? One that you want to hear or one that I want to tell you?

I want to hear you answer my questions, Father.

Son, if you will be still; then you will know that I am the God of Jacob, the God who raised Lazarus from the dead, the God who breathes life into your body that has been so denied of spiritual oxygen. Son, when you speak to me, much of your life I have required you to be still to simply learn how to be obedient to my voice. Son, it is through your obedience to My voice that My voice begins to resonate in your spirit-man. My spirit breathes life into your mind, will and emotions. These very words I speak are coming from the same spirit that raised Jesus (the Christ) from the dead. These words I speak to you, My dear son; these very words are the same words that were before the beginning and will be after the end. Does this make sense to you, my son?

I'm even more confused now. I simply want you to answer questions about my life but you are not doing what I ask.

Son, stop being stupid and listen to My words. I am bringing forth truth into your spirit-man which is restoring your soul; the very soul that was brought forth into this world by My spirit; which makes all things come into existence. You say you want Me to answer your questions, but am I not answering the question right now as to why you have for so long struggled with your own life? Does My word not speak of losing your own life to gain the life I desire to give to you?
Son, your whole life you have been performance driven. You have driven yourself insane by trying to please me through reading the bible, through praying repeatedly, through continuing to do things your way without allowing My Spirit to assist you.

Father, this is true what you are saying.

Son, of course this is true. For I am the way the truth and the life. Son, if you will notice, I am not speaking to you in "scriptureze."

"Scriptureze?"

Son, why do you always want Me to quote scripture to you when the words you are hearing are what you have been so longing for? See, most Christians say they want to hear My voice and to know me more but they don't. All they want is to make themselves look better by quoting words from a book, but have no understanding of the meanings of these words.

Father, I don't....

Son, let me finish what I am saying to you. If you will sit at my feet as Mary did when she sat at the feet of Jesus, I will not have to address you as a Martha who tried to please me by her actions. For I am already pleased by what My Son did on the cross. That pleased me and completed the necessary task I sent Him to do on this earth so that my dear children would have fellowship with Me. A student can not learn why 10 + 10 = 100 if he is not willing to listen to the teacher explain why. A pilot can not learn how to fly if she is not willing to listen to the teacher show her how to operate the controls of the plane. Do you understand what I am saying?

A little, Father....

Son, a man cannot exist in a relationship with a woman if he is not willing to listen to her speak. Just because he sits by her side does not mean he has any more understanding of her heart. Now, as I speak to you; I occasionally will use my reference book to illustrate a point. "As Jesus told His disciples, My sheep listen to my voice; I know them and they follow me. I know them and they are with Me."

Now son, these words I have just quoted also means this: sheep that to not listen to My voice; I do not know them and they do not follow me. I do not know them and they are not with me.

Father, how can you misquote these words from the very scriptures you wrote?

Son, when a student is in school; does the teacher not speak about what will happen if the rules of the class are not followed? Likewise, I can speak about sheep who are not of mine just as easily as I can speak about sheep who are mine. My words bring forth life. But too many people want to contain Me to a book. It is true that I inspired people to write a book that is the Word but I AM the Word. As I told my prophet John: "For in the beginning was the Word. And the word was with God, was God. He was with God in the beginning."

Son, a person can quote these words until they are blue in the face and they will have no greater understanding of what these words mean. Unless you allow the Word that is within you; (the very Word that was made flesh as Jesus the Christ) to speak to you what these words mean, you will have no more understanding of who I am than a man who talks nonstop to his wife but refuses to listen to her speak.

This same Word that was in the beginning is what is speaking to you right now. I am the Word.

Father, my head hurts....

Well of course it does and that is a good thing. My words are sharper than any two-edged sword and the pain that you feel is your flesh being separated from your spirit by My words. Your flesh has been so lied to by satan that your mind has been baptised into death. There is a baptism of life but you must also know there is a baptism of death for satan seeks to seek, kill, and destroy. The words he speaks kill. His words destroy the understanding of who I am. Satan is a very bad devil. For from the time you were born, he began his attacks on your mind. You were without my spirit then so he not only spoke to your mind, but he also spoke to your heart. You had no way to defend yourself against the devil's words. It was like a football team trying to stop the offense from scoring but with no defense on the field to do this. You began to believe these lies and eventually, you were convinced that the lies satan spoke of were actually truths. My angels protected you from death and yes, I only allowed Satan so much pull on the leash by which he is chained to but (dear son), you must remember that I gave the devil permission to do all these things. Do you understand these words I have spoken to you?

Father, my head hurts so much....

Son, you must be patient for this pain is necessary. I do not give spiritual band-aids. I give my words which bring forth life. This pain you feel is purging out the lies that you once believed. It is healing your mind of the filth that once existed. A son must lose his mind to know and accept that he has been adopted into My family. Most sons never know this. They walk around as aimlessly as a donkey without a master. Son, this is beginning to make sense to you, isn't it?

Yes, Father but what about the questions I want answered?

Son, a checkbook is hard to balance if one cannot add or subtract. Likewise, the questions you want Me to answer will be answered in due time. Son, truth doesn't come from reading the bible. All that does is give knowledge about Me. But this does not so much as give you one drop of understanding of who I am. I made you in My image and I am a jealous God. I long to have time with My children but I don't compete with cell phones, tv, internet, parties.

Father, are you telling me that I do all these things and that is why I have had so much trouble hearing your voice?

Son, My disciples frustrated Me greatly with their lack of understanding of the things I was speaking to them. But as they grew to listen to me, they began to be filled with wisdom. Did Peter's shadow heal the sick because he was any more spiritual than Luke, Paul, or David? Son, great understanding of what is the width, length, depth, and height of My love does not come from attending church meetings, not from singing worship songs, not from praying (sometimes without ceasing), not from memorizing scripture, not from being an elder or a deacon. None of these things will produce any fruit that will last. For the branch cannot bear fruite by itself, it must remain in the vine.

Father, I feel like I have failed you.

Son, why do you feel this way?

Father, I have not gotten the answers I asked for and now I feel as though you are disappointed in me.

Son, do not feel this way for you have done the good thing and sat at My feet. A good son listens to His Father. But you must continue to wait on Me. Wait on Me with your whole life. I will never leave you and never forsake you. I will continue to be your guide and your protector. If you will seek Me with your whole heart, you will never have to worry about your life for I will give you understanding of all things concerning your life.

Father, how do I do this?

Son, rest now. Allow these words to resonate throughout your soul. Think about the things I have said to you. As the days, progress I will speak to you again. Son, you can always speak to Me and I will always listen. I may not always answer (right away) but know that you will hear My voice....

Father, I love you so much.

Son, I love you too...