Thoughts of my Father

THE WOLVES WILL TURN....

2011-06-10T12:36:00.000-07:00

how quickly the wolves will turn on some of their own when the pot get stirred<

(Sadly) most Christians are too stupid to really consider the words that Jesus was speaking. A (natural minded) man can not understand the things of the Spirit. Thus, neither can most Christians when it comes to recognizing truth. If a Christian< needs to be reminded of something that the Spirit of God has been speaking for all eternity, then he hould really stop sniffing his own stink and get his head out of his natural behind

Most churches have about as much power as a beauty pageant as they only focus on the outward appearance instead of yielding to the Spirit of God-- which reveals to whomever is willing to decide if they are going to follow the scriptures-- as it says very clearly and very plainly; the devil knows the scriptures better than most Christians and yet he continuously roams the earth like a lion looking for anyone to seek, kill, and destroy. More people are willing to listen to the devil than they are the voice of God.

The trouble with most Christians is they have so much doubt inside of their mind, will, and emotions, they don't ever think from a perspective that even Jesus struggled with his humanity. Of course most Christians would say-- "ridiculous that you think Jesus struggled" -- well that's exactly the kind of thinking that would lead a Christian to decide whether or not to witness to a person. Most Chrisitans are too heavenly-minded thinking about when they die and get to meet Jesusthat they are are no earthly good to realize how to live a practical-purpose-filled Christian life. A donkey knows it's a donkey, but sometimes it's the ones who claim to call themselves Christians who act like the jackasses.... Balaam knows all too well about that

Sadly, most Christians only know how to think at the suface level (regarding their faith). This (in turn) leads to surface-level comments which merely summarize/reflect most Christian cookie-cutter. Many Christians want to believe what you say, but yet you sound more like a Rush Limbaugh talk-show. "dittos, dittos, whatever you say... Pray for me, grace indeed," You mine as well have "Sieg Heil" attached to your comments. Many people don't even (for one second) think what do the scriptures really mean

As for most Christians; most of their "talk" that is spouted from can be summarized/described by the following adjectives: disengenuine, haughty, condescending, merit-lacking, complaisant, ego-driven, distainful. It would be more exciting to watch a KKK rally than to listen to a bunch of squirrels scrambling for nuts.

A wake-up call to most Christians; get your nose out of the rear-end of the Calvinistic mindset and into the scriptures. Many non-Christians view that "theology" as elitest and are turned off by it. It is a horrible way to witness to non-believers. READ THIS VERY CAREFULLY (to the rest of you as well)--> many of you are being falsely led by going around with the "God calls the elect mindset." Yes, the scriptures (in Romans) speak of this but MANY OF YOU have adopted this as your reason for believing and are WORSHIPPING THIS SO-CALLED "THEOLOGY" rather than the Truth-Giving Spirit of Christ; the one who has given us all life. If some of you are not careful and don't turn from your belief system, the Lord is going to reveal to you in the not-too far future how pathetic your efforts have been to turn your nose at the ones who the Lord has put into your pathways.

Most of today's Christians are no more interested in growing to know the Lord intimately as they are in knowing how properly thank someone for a job well done. Many who come on here know how to say all the right things and certainly can express how they feel about something ,but the MINUTE someone comes on here and says something that is contrary to how their FEELINGS towards God--> they curl up into a ball like a snake and pout/strike

The purpose of what is being written here is to cause the reader to think about what he/she is thinking about (either positive or negative). Jesus did not come to seek, kill, and destroy but to unite. Most Christians (sadly) are not interested in intimately knowing the Lord. If they were, they wouldn't drop everything to say "AMEN!" when someone speaks a scripture verse. RIDICULOUS...
many Christians worship the idea of Jesus rather than Jesus (the Christ). It is an insult to the faith that many claim to say they have. THis kind of watered-down bullcrap is the same as the direction public education has taken. Noone is interested in actively pursuing the Lord's heart, to seek His face, to genuinely putting their "PRAYER AGENDA" aside and instead going before the Lord and simply saying: "Lord, here I am, I have no other." If Christians really did this, church's woudl have more power.

Churches need to be actively disciplining their believers and not just having meetings (which most Sunday services have turned into). The Lord is certainly willing to pour out His intimacy when people stop putting their own prayer agenda of "Lord, will you fix my problem" or "Lord, will you give you give you a good day?" ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Someone who has gone to church their whole life and SHOULD know the Lord better has resorted to insulting the Lord with those stupid prayers? They mine as well not pray them because if they think the Lord is listening to those types of prayers--> well, then they don't know the scriptures very well because that is contrary to the scriptures. Animals don't argue with mother nature but humans are the ONLY species of animal stupid enough to try and film a tornado

The bible does not lead anyone to John Calvin, John Wesley, or any other theologian. It leads people to Christ. Plain and simple. Anyone who reverts to defending who they are worshipping doesn't need to try and convert a disciple to a particular theology or theologian.

If someone presents the notion that having a particularly bad day must be the result of the Lord's will-- what they are possibly dealing with is: the Lord's desires for that particular person were not revealed to that person possibly due (in part) to a particular decision that person made, or it could have been to letting the Lord's descision-making strategy to become a Christian-based strategy. This kind of faith does not come easy or over-night-- rather it comes through intimimately seeking Jesus as the (Christ) through His Word and His Spirit. They must both go hand in hand.

So many churches continually push the Lord's Word out of the church and what they are simply left with is an independent thinking that has not been blessed by the Lord to that particular church. (Sadly) it often leads churches to not go out of their way to minister to a particular person/group of people because the leadership of the church has ADOPTED the notion of "What if I had pursued that person? Well, it doesn't matter because God is in control of all things." What that does is it frequently freezes the person's mind, will, and emotions (their soul) into a " FROZEN CHOSEN" prison of that persons'/church's soul. Hence, these same churches have nothing left but their own curriculum/doctrine to bring in church meetings

TO SIMPLIFY THIS: let's say a church is beginning to have attendance issues. The common, surface-level approach would be: This must be the Lord's will for our church. Of course, this could be the truth; but the trouble with this kind of mindset is that it leads church's to base their decision-making purely on "well, the Lord must have wanted this to happen" which further results in the churches to seeing a drop in attendance only as a positive. There could be a number of reasons as to why the attendance has dropped--> pastor has been having an affair, leadership is mistreating congregation members, the church (as a whole) unwilling to pursue what direction the Lord has for the church. QUITE OFTEN, disobedience is usually the reason for things that happen in a Christian's tries to walk out his/her faith. Disobedience is not a characteristic of the Lord and what results is the Christian is then placed into a state of confusion in their mind,will, and emotions. This almost comes upon that person/church like a dark cloud and can lead that particular person/church down many dangerous pathways

SO, whenever I hear a person say they "only read this particular bible " or "worship at that particular denomination" or I simply want to ask that person, if the scriptures do not make one mention about either of those two terms, then what is the reason you feel the urge/need to defend your faith with that, rather than the scriptures? If a person knows the scriptures as well as the Spirit of God is capable of retrieving them to a person's memory, then why should he/she need to resurrect a person's ideologies--> rather than expound on what the scriptures mean to them due to their coming to understand and "know what is the width and heighth, and depth of His love?"

It's not as if you don't understand....

2010-09-17T20:46:00.000-07:00

Does it make sense? The Lord's desire fill us up with His wanting us to long for His other ways to communicate His heart's desire than just limiting His method to repeating a single phrase that's already (been) spoken.

If we (truly) desire His (whole) self; then the idea that most Chiristians have to read scriptures knowing (full) well the Holy Spirit is (fully) capable of enlightening these scriptures make our senses (aware) that just as Jesus was fully capable of revealing His (true) nature by just asking his Father to answer a question--> such as, "Father, why have forsaken me?"

If the Lord chooses to speak, He is fully capable of using the scriptures to support what His Spirit has already put inside of our heart.

How kind and wonderful the Lord is! His grace is more than sufficient, He is the first and the last; the Beginning and the End. His face is more beautiful than all the sugar-sweetened Krispy Creme donuts served at the communion Sunday breakfast!

I'm not trying to be critical but....

2010-03-21T12:27:00.000-07:00

One of the things that really bothers me is how people want to complain to the Lord but they don't know that half the problem isn't the desire for complaining, but how they approach the Lord when they want something to complain about. For example, let's say a person tries to spend time with their sweetheart and she's not responsive to his approach. Instead of complaning about how the Lord's desires are not her desires, shut your mouth and stop using time griping about how the Lord hasn't blessed you with a person who appears to have given up hope.
Rather--> wait on the Lord to give you an answer about the problem behind the approach. It will make better sense to let the Lord return what makes sense to us the way it was supposed to... before the booger-time cockroach tried to put his bullcrap into ideals....

The Lord is so sweet and kind!

If our pride did not agree with arroogance..

2009-10-30T21:18:00.000-07:00

The purpose of the scriptures is to make a person aware of who the Lord of hosts is and how wonderful it is to grow up in discovering that the Lord has turned around Christians for centuries and shown to them the foolishness in their agendas. Closely related to this is the first time the parents of a person who never (listened) to htem as they spoke to him about his foolisheness every day.

The scriptures teach: “And you are proud and arrogant! And you ought rather to mourn (bow in sorrow and in shame) until the person who has done row and in shame) until the person who has done this (shameful) thing is removed from your fellowship and your midst (1st Corinthians 5:2).

The same Christians who come to a small group meeting looking for ways to pick up the offenseby being accusatory of the gov’t judge other people the same way Christ is going to judge these Christians.

Oh, yes they are not going to lose their eternal salvation but what could become eternal right now is moved away from their correct way of thinking.

The Lord has wanted Christians to laugh at themselves. But these same people can’t even laugh at the outfit they wore to church last Sunday

Putting your dreams aside

2009-09-29T10:35:00.000-07:00

Part of the problem with "Christianity" is that too many people want to confine Jesus to the bible.

If people don't understand this point, they will never ever move forward in their relationship with the Lord.

They do a better job putting their faith into the Cincinnati Bengals than they do the Lord.

Watch how many "Christians" cheer loudly for their favorite team but can't get excited abou the Lord...

Sex is not the problem

2009-07-15T14:31:00.000-07:00

THe problem isn't people having sex before the ceremony. It's that they don't know how to handle the many things that come out of a sexual relationship.

THere are many complications: The scriptures teach that when a person "knew" the other person they were inimate. People have no idea the spiritual consequences that this. THe first thing is that a marriage must complement the rlationship Christ has with the church. Most Christians have no idea how to handle a relationship that does not involve sex.

There are many options a couple has in relationship but the respect a woman has for her man doesn't in the bedroom. It doesn't come in the form of how good a kisser he is or how much he can treat her on a date. It comes from intimately seeking the face of God. There is nothing more intimate than seeking His face and recognizing the thoughts and feelings of the Lord.

A business suit may suit you just fine....

2009-06-12T19:52:00.000-07:00

But this doesn't bring a person to one more step closer to any understanding to who the Lord is. Research is showing me that the reason church's today don't have any power is because they don't have any understanding of how the Lord wants to deal with the hurt in people's hearts....

People have come into agreement with things that the Lord did not give to them nor did His Spirit direct them towards these things.

His kingdom is here but very few people have ever actually seen it. It's a lot harder for a person to look past his own life when the things that have blinded a person's spiritual understanding are the very things that the church's are putting right back into the church--> yes, the things that Jesus destroyed--> the works of the devil; the works of the flesh--> THESE things are driving out the Spirit that produces the ability to live the abundant life that Jesus came to give to us.

This may be a bit confusing but what happens when someone you know doesn't agree with what you have told them. Their understanding is destroyed through a false understanding of what you have simply spoken to them.

It's like this: suppose the Lord puts it on your heart to go to bed at a certain time. You don't understand why and choose to put your stupidity in place of the truth that the Lord has impressed upon your heart to do. You give up any chance to receive the blessings through simple "following instructions" that He gives to you. Sure, you are blood-bought and saved for all eternity; but that doesn't mean you are any wiser than a jackass....

The Holy Spirit who bears witness to the truth that jesus spoke of does make Himself available 24 hours a day at a crash test sight. The Crash Test Dummies could not make music that had any other letter in their song but "mmmmm." This was, at one time, a powerful song that produced enthusiasm for people who listened to this song. Why does it seem strange to think that the words themselves of that song were not producing the power but rather the creators of the music were the ones who gave the power of the music to the listeners? This is not much different from the Holy Spirit's witnessing to the truth that Jesus (the first and the last) Christ (who was and is the overcomer) gave up His deity to live in his humanity so that we could become supremely victorious in heavenly places.

The problem arises when we take it upon ourselves to try and bypass our own humanity to live in the heavenly realm. This is a powerful truth and if you are willing to receive it the Lord will also be willing to bless those with a much deeper understanding of Himself.

His peace produces spiritual oxygen inside of our spirit man which resusitates our souls from the double-minded foolishness we have embraced for so many years.

Whatever makes you feel right

2009-06-07T19:56:00.001-07:00

Most Christians try and do what looks right. Few of them actually are able to accomplish these things for many other reasons that they are not aware of. Could this be becasue they don't to know how to look at the words in the scriptures with much instruction on how to apply the words in the scriptures into their own lives? Before a person enjoys their own life, he or she needs instruction on how to respond to their own life. The same sermons Jesus preached were applicable then and now. So, why is it that people are still responding to Him the same way now that the people did back then?

What I mean by this is: not loving other people, trying to memorize the scriptures instead of allowing the scriptures to be revealed to a person's mind through simply letting the reasoning ability of the Spirit who inspired the scriptures to reason with a person's humanity.

A Christian who is wise knows how to win a person to Christ. So much idiocy is in the telling aspect rather than the reasoning aspect. The ideas and reasons as to how to reason with people simply can not be confined to the scriptures. Just as a person's parenting skills cannot be confined in a "how to parent" book.....

When do I have time to spend with the Lord?

2009-05-18T13:47:00.001-07:00

Son, how are you today?

Let's see here. I've got to pay my phone bill, call my mom on her birthday, get my car fixed, make sure the kids' dentist appointments are scheduled. How am I supposed to do all of these things? I'm supposed to get the church membership class set up and.....

Son, are you ok today? Tell me what is bothering you...

I am so tired of dealing with this crap.... I have no idea how to get all this stuff done. What if I simply just gave up.... Would that be a good thing? Maybe it was a mistake to move out of our house into this bigger home.... If I present all this stuff to the Lord, He won't even care one bit about this stuff. Why do I even bother with church membership? It's not as though we're even affilliated with this church anymore. I can't remember the last time we went to church and it felt like it was enjoyable. It always feels like a chore. Noone understands this. If I told people at church this they would not respect me or listen to me.

If never used to be this way. Why does it feel like the name of Jesus is so foreign to me? I don't even have a relationship with my family anymore. How am I supposed to have a relationship with someone who doesn't even know the things I go through? He's not even here. I can't see God so sometimes I think maybe He's just not real... Stop thinking this! I could never tell anyone this. What would the church think? they would probably excommunicate me for this.

What is wrong with me? Why am I thinking these thoughts? Perhaps if I read my bible. Maybe I should pray more. I dont' ever feel like prayer accomplishes anything.... I mean, come on! I have never seen the Lord answer one of my prayers. It's as if He has better things to do than listen to me.....

Son, do you feel you have the wisdom to handle the responsibility with the things I do? Allow me to reason with you by speaking to me your thoughts. I have never been distant from you. It only seems like this when you have so much on your plate. Some of the things that you have been allowing yourself to believe about Me are truths, but some of the things that you have been led to believe about me simply are not true at all. Who told you I was distant? You did not believe this when you were a younger person. When you began to believe the things that looked and seemed to be true, it put such a strain on your human spirit.

Son, look you have to remember that Jesus lived as a human being. Yes, Jesus was and is and always will be the reason you have eternal life, but when do you want this life to begin?

Father, what the heck? Does this mean I can have eternal life right now?

Son (laughing), of course it does! You have to remember, you have felt resentment towards other people. Resentment towards those who were put in positions that you thought you should have was one of the things I never gave to you. Son, as you sit with me and simply allow your senses to calm down; you become better able to know that I am supportive of many things you have accomplished. However, some of the things that you have accomplished haven't been without frustration. You were not meant to carry this frustration. It is a burden that weighs you down (spiritually). The scriptures teach "My yolk is easy and My burden is light." Do you want to shoulder a burden that did not come from Me? Son, many Christians have made a lifestyle out of putting burdens on their shoulders that have nothing to do with having eternal life. You should know this, son. The scriptures are inside of you. I have respected your desire to have free will and I have allowed you to shoulder some things that were not meant for you. Does this make sense? Allow Me to hear what I have spoken to you by repeating back to me what I have said to you. This will allow Me to reason with you whether the things you have heard have made sense to you.

The scriptures teach that "He who listens to Me is wise indeed." Are you realizing that as you listen to Me (Jehovah; that is My name) explain things to you from an eternal perspective, it brings you closer to Me? The scriptures teach "Draw close to Me and I will will draw close to you." Son, who do you think wrote the scriptures? I have watched you quote scriptures until your are blue in the face. Stop looking at your life from a temporary existance and begin to look at it from My existance. You have been trained to know Me, but do you really think you can do My job for me?

Father, um; no, I don't think I can do your job for you.

Then stop acting like you have been given so much insight to Me but when noone is looking, you choose to act like you are the head of your household. Son, you need to know that this is what I have been trying to say to you. Many Christians think they have so much to do but come on! Who in the heck told them that busy-ness is next to Godliness? Does this feel like church to you? I am having a wonderful time with you, Son!

Father, I don't know if I can handle doing the things that I have to do. Noone helps me. You're never there when I need you. As a matter of fact, when was the last time you talked with me about something that I needed help with?

Son, do you know how badly I have wanted to tell you these things? You have spent so much time exercising your mind and body but the spiritual exercise we are doing is causing you to rest. The scriptures teach "in the presence of the Lord there is rest." Rest in the physical sense is what Christians spend more time driving themselves crazy trying to find ways to rest. That is why everything you have heard has not fallen on deaf ears. Yes, satan comes with busy-ness to steal the words that your human spirit has communicated to your senses. You have been brought up to believe that respect is what you need to feel. Feelings are good, but when you are able to think through the things I have spoken to you; it creates the opportunity for respect to come into to you and let you know that you're doing what you have been created to do. Trust me when I say this. I know that many of these things do not make sense right now but recently some experiences that you have been through have kept you from becoming the person I have called you to be. Allow Me to reveal wisdom and respect the same way you have allowed Me to reveal Myself to you in other ways. You could have purchased things that would have given you temporary enjoyment but these things would not fulfill you in the way My words do. The peace you feel in your heart is causing respect to come in and tell you that the dreams you have always wanted to happen and waited for are only dreams. Let me show Myself to you and this will bring forth dreams have never been revealed to you. Allowing Me to reveal Myself to the people in your life you ask Me to help has put them into a position to reveal Myself them to them. Thi is what you have wanted to have happen for how long? Eternal life comes in when you drink from the fountain that produces life by reproducing life that has already been given a place in the heavenly realm..... That is all for now. I am the Lord and that is My name....

Existing with our His existance is what most Christians want...

2009-05-04T13:32:00.000-07:00

We are temporary human to be able to recognize what Jesus went through (as a human) what it means to be with Him as a spirit-filled being who is able to recognize all that the Jesus went through. Looking through human eyes we become more able to walk as Jesus walked and to see things from the eyes of His perception. This often promotes our existence to a higher plane so that we are then able to live above what Jesus was able to live above; which is often what most people cannot even live beneath--> their own existence and the foolishness of it without Him leading the way

Do you believe Jesus or a $50 bill?

2009-04-21T19:46:00.000-07:00

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever. Why don't people know how to talk with Him? He hasn't changed one bit since the beginning. The scriptures teach that the eyes of the Spirit of the Lord roams to and fro, seeking those who truly are pursuing a deeper more intimate relationship with Jesus as the overcomer; the Christ.

People want to become acquainted with Jesus, but they don't to put off their own agenda. If you will listen to Him speak, His Spirit will resonate inside of you. This will put your spirit man into a place where you can receive the truth from Him who is the truth and speaks only truth. Truth always agrees with our spirit but the soul sometimes agrees with our spirit, but sometimes it fights for control with the flesh.

As a Christian who's flesh was destroyed when Jesus did the work on the cross, ask your self this question: Do you think a relationship with Jesus is worth more than a $50 bill?

2008-12-11T14:01:00.000-08:00

I want My people to learn that I am much more than words on paper. Sometimes it seems as though I am so distant from them. What they don't understand is that when they are always looking for me the words on the pages of the bible, the Spirit behind the words has to reveal the truth to the person. The truth has to come from what is revealed and not through information. Information is what has killed a relationship. I am trying to restore a person's heart but they would rather come into church and hear someone speak about the new technology that the building has had installed, or a purpose driven life book which does speak truth. Or, the church will talk about a bible study or what happened in the church meetings. Remember, a meeting of 2 or more people does not always have My Spirit with it if the meeting does not seek to reveal Jesus as the Christ; the Messiah. What people want is to have a purpose driven life but if want to have a purpose driven life they must know what I am wanting to do is to put them into a place where they can have a life filled with peace and enjoyment. But most christians don't enjoy their life because they have no idea how to speak love into other people's lives. Most christians don't even understand what love truly is.

chasing kids and politics

2008-11-08T00:04:00.000-08:00

Father what is it that seems to be troubling you?

Son, I should ask you the same question.

Father, why should you be asking me this question?

Son, when My thoughts become your thoughts, you begin to think the way I want yout o think. You begin to sense and know what it is that bothers me, as well.

So, Father, if I am thinking correctly you are bothered by people.

Son, most Christians today bother me greatly.

Father, why is this?

Son, imagine if you had a friend who was constantly asking you to forgive them for something they did to you long ago and no matter what you said; they still didn't believe you...."

Father, I have met those types of people...

Son, I have seen these people for a lonnggggg time. They bother me greatly with their stupidity.

Father, are you calling the people who call themselves Christians stupid?

Son, what do you think I am supposed to say? That they are intelligent? No, let's be real here and call a spade a spade. They are nothing more than asses on two feet.

Father, what did you just say?

Son, I'm talking about a donkey. These people who say they love me are nothing more than donkeys on feet. They are jackasses...

Father, why do you say this?

Son, Christians have no excuses; they should no better. Have you seen the blog pages on here? They chase politics. They chase their emotions. They chase the bible. They chase economics. They chase ignorance. They chase kids. They chase being a mom or a dad. They chase they stupidity of the world. They chase so much of their own understanding of what they feel is right. They chase everything but Me.

Father, this bothers you?

Son, when you sit down to write on this blog page, you should ask Me what I want you to say before you start typing.

Father, what do you want me to say?

Son, I want you to stop typing right now and simply let Me speak to you.

----pause--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Son, one of the things I want you to understand is that most people fill their blog pages with things that have nothing to do with what it means to be a Christian.

Father, what do you mean by this?

Son, to be a Christian means to be Christ-like. A Christian has a deep understanding of Me. A relationship with the bible is nothing more than lifting a book and reading it. The words (themselves) don't reveal one bit about the person Jesus (the Christ). The Spirit has to teach the words and the words cannot be brought alive unless the Spirit behind the words is able to reveal the Word.

Most Christians don't want this. They want some cookie-cutter watered-down bullcrap. THey have no more of an understanding of what being a Christian than an owner who tries to translate what the family dog is barking about. A dog has a better understanding of how to take a dump in the backyard of his master's house than most Christians have of knowing what I am thinking and how I am feeling. These may sound like harsh words but they are true.

Father, I sense great frustration on your part. Why?

Son, I am not frustrated with those who choose to sit at my feet. Notice how Mary did that. She did the good thing. Martha was always trying to please Me. She always tried to show herself strong but it is impossible to do this if the strength one receives is out of their own will. They mine as well call themselves a donkey and give piggy back rides to people for money. (laughing)

Father, that is funny.

Son, of course it's funny (smiling) but it makes sense, doesn't it?

Father, it does.

Son, do you understand these words I am saying to you?

Father, yes I do. Why do you ask this?

Son, know that the church is not teaching people how to be trained to know Me. They teach the same tired tried-again-and-again bullcrap.

I don't understand, Father.

Son, would you rather hear someone quote football statistics or someone who can describe to you what the game was like because they were actually there?

Father, I would rather be at the game, myself!

Son, (grinning) getting to the game is the easy part. Watching the game and letting me teach you how things work is the hard part.

Father, I see your point.

Son, do you understand why it is so important to let yourself be trained up to hear My voice?

No, Father; I'm afraid I don't.

Son, stop thinking like the son who died when he accepted My Son into his life. You do understand but start thinking with your spiritual senses.

Son, the way to understand Me, My thoughts, My feelings, My words is by simply asking Me to give you someone who will teach this to you. You should know this because that's exactly what happened to you.

Father, this is true. (smiling)

Well, of course it's true. I said it, so it was and is and will always be true! (grinning)

Thinking about my feelings

2008-10-23T17:48:00.001-07:00

Father, I prostrate myself before you. Oh, how I love you. Speak to me dear Father; for I am waiting to hear the sound of your voice. It fills Me with your love and your touch...

Son, I know you want me to speak to you about Me, but when you learn to hear Me speak to you through your everyday life you will then begin to understand that it is I (yes, that is MY name); I will show you more about your life. It is through this understanding of your life that you will be better able to understand about Me.

People don't want to hear the Truth, they only want to hear Me say things that are familiar to them. These things, those things, anything that I speak about is at first unfamiliar to My people. My people say they want to know Me, but they don't. They say to Me they love me but they don't know how. For if they knew that the only way they are capable of loving is by allowing Me to teach and show them what love truly is; they they would begin to know and recognize and understand that there is a better way than the way they go. The path they walk is not My path.

Father, I think I am hearing what you are saying.

Son, are you still frustrated? Why are you frustrated?

Father, i am frustrated?

Son, why is this?

Father, I am frustrated because I hear you at times and then I don't hear you and ge tconfused.

Son, I don't author confusion and i don't seek to make you feel this way. Let go of your feelings and start thinking. Think of it this way; you rode a bike when you were little but had trouble at first. You needed training wheels and wanted to cling ot those training wheels all the time. WHen I showed you how to ride without training wheels, you began to panic; just as Peter did when he was on the water. You are hearing Me; My voice but as this increases so must your trust for not only what I say but how I say it. Son, I love you and you know this but you need to stop being stupid. Stop complaining and whining to Me. I have told you over and over that you are hearing My voice. Why do you keep doubting Me? Am I the one who told you you were not worthy to hear Me?

No, Father you are not.

Well of course I'm not. DO not allow your mind to interfere with the mind I gave you. (laughing)

Father, I love you.

Son, is that what you really want to tell Me?

Father, but I do.

Now son, why don't you really tell me what is on your mind?

Father, I do love you.

Son (laughing), are you not hearing Me? I know this. Stop telling Me what you want Me to hear. Remember, I know you better than you know yourself?

Huh?

Son, there are actually people who will look at Me and say, why do you want a relationship with me? You don't even know me! But, son; what they do not realize is that I know these people better than they know themselves.

Father, that saddens me.

Son, I have dealt with this kind of bullcrap for years.

Father, did you just say bullcrap?

Son, (laughing) why yes I did. Does that help you understand how i feel about this?

Father, (smiling) it help me to understand what you think about this.

Son (smiling), you make me feel good when you say that. Now, you're thinking!

A life of disappointments

2008-10-05T12:10:00.001-07:00

Son, what have you been thinking about today?

Father, is that you?

Son, of course it is! I'm glad you are starting to recognize how I speak to you.

Father, is that you?

Son, I have always tried to let you know I am here. Why don't you trust that it is Me who is speaking to your mind, right now?

Father, I think it is you who is speaking to me. I hope I'm not crazy and that my mind isn't playing tricks on me.

Son, that's what I have been trying to tell you: you have to let Me speak to your mind the way I want to. You are trusting My thoughts more because you are able to readily recognize Me more consistently. Know that these thoughts I have put in your mind are My thoughts. Your thoughts have begun to accept My thoughts because you have allowed Me to take away from you your perception (in your mind) as to how I do things. Does this make sense, son?

Father, if this is you speaking to me; then I want you to keep speaking to me. Would you tell me about what "grace" means?

(laughing) Son, why don't you just let me speak to you about the things I want to speak to you about. It is through these things that I want to speak to you about that I am better able to reveal Myself to you the way I want you to see, know, and recognize Me as.

Father, are you telling Me that I can't think for myself?

Son (laughing and shaking head), no no.... That 's not at all what I'm saying. You are becoming an overcomer; just as My son (Jesus) did. He was able to overcome the temptations of this world by fellowshipping with Me. He was not born with all the abilities He had. He had the ability to gain an intimate understanding of Me--> which was in his DNA. This "thing" is also in your DNA too, son...

Father, what are you saying?

Son, a person who wants to leave his family and go into ministry can't simply do it with the understanding of how to do it. There has to be a training for this. Jesus (the Christ) was trained by the same Spirit that lives within you to hear My voice. THIS is how one is able to walk with Me. I want My people to be able to walk with Me. This will only happen by being trained how to hear My voice. It is possible to hear the voice of the Almighty....

Father, why me?

Son, why not you? You gave up religion; which is the absence of relationship. You gave up your idea of how I behave. You gave up your way of wanting to force your mind to believe that you are a sinner and that I did not give up My life for you. These things have to happen first before one can accept that he or she can fellowship with Me....

A right way and a wrong way

2008-08-18T21:30:00.000-07:00

Son, tell me about your day.

Father, it was a good day and somewhat of not a good day. First the bad--> I got angry with a teammate and said something I shouldn't have said which was a sin. I cursed some guy under my breath when he cut me off in traffic; which was another sin I committed. Now the good--> We played softball, lost 2 games, but it was so much fun to be out there playing and doing something I loved to do. I was able to get more of my room finished for school! I am very excited about my upcoming school year. It is going to be a wonderful year. I love so much to see the new students I am with and the challenges it is going to bring. But most of all I am excited to see how You are going to work in their lives this year. It is going to be wonderful. Wait, why are you wanting to know about my day. Lord, you know everything! Why do you want to hear me talk with you about my day when you already know my thoughts? There are bigger and better things you could talk with me about then my silly old day. Father, I know you have much more important things you want to speak with me about than about me.

Son, would you like me to talk to you through a quoted bible verse? Do you want me to tell you "thou shall not murder?" How about this-- you really need to focus on not sinning anymore. You need to repent and feel like you are unworthy of communing and fellowshipping with Me. Son, what I just said sounds so silly because those words in that last sentence I spoke to you are contrary to My character. Would you like me to speak on something I know nothing about--> this something being the sins you claim to commit. Son, do you not yet understand that I do not see you as a sinner anymore? You were saved by grace and that means that you are now operating under a new nature, a new flesh. I keep telling you that I don't see you as a sinner so why do you see yourself as a sinner? Your new flesh, your new nature is perfect just as Jesus (the Christ) was and is perfect. You were blood-bought when He died for you. You received perfection as your new nature when you receive My Spirit inside of you. So, tell me son: why do you keep condemming yourself by telling me about things you claim to do that I cannot see or hear?

Father, I don't understand.

Son, it's like this: let's say you show one of your students how to add numbers. Your student learns to do it the right way (your way) but then proceeds to subtract the numbers instead of adding them together. You ask her what is wrong and show her how to add the numbers correctly. She says she (again) knows how to do what you showed her but then continues to subtract instead of adding. This goes on over and over and over again. Finally, the student asks you what she is doing wrong. You tell her and show her correctly how to do it. She refuses to listen to you know matter how many times you show her how to add the numbers. Son, this is what it is like when people continue to see themselves as sinners instead of perfect--> just as I am perfect.

Father, why do you keep talking with me about this? This is like the 20th time this year you've talked with me about this.

Son, why do you keep acting like a "poor pitiful beat-down sinner?"

Father, I'm not doing that. When have I done this?

Son, (laughing) do you see the error in your thinking?

No, Father, I'm afraid I don't.

Son, you claim you are aren't acting like a sinner, but when you were telling Me about your day I (for a moment) could not hear what you were saying to me. Son, I know you better than you know yourself and I know your nature for this nature is the nature that I gave to you. I know when you are operating in your new nature and when you are operating in your old (unsaved, Adamic) nature. When you aren't operating in your new nature (the nature of the Christ), then I know you are operating in your old nature. See, a person is not able to operate under both natures at the same time. They either operate out of their new (redeemed, perfect) nature or continue to operate out of their old nature. Son, I neither can understand or hear the words you speak to me when you are operating out of this old nature. Sadly, many of the times Christians cry out to me asking for forgiveness, I cannot hear them because they are not speaking to me out of their new nature but rather their old nature. In a sense, they are blaspheming the very life that My Spirit breathed into them. This puts My Spirit out of them and causes them to cling to their old nature (the flesh).

Father, you ask me about my day and now you tell me about this? Why aren't you talking to me about more important things?

Son, and what would be more important than to talk to you about you? After all, I created you. I breathed life into your soul. You were and are made in My image. My son came down to earth as a fleshly human and not a donkey. You are the reflection of Me to those who don't know Me. So, wouldn't it make sense for Me to talk with you about you because (in a sense) I'm really talking with you about Me! Does this make me sound egotistical? (laughing)

Father, (laughing) you have a wicked; er I mean a wonderful sense of humor.

Son, (laughing) wicked sense of humor? Actually that would be Satan who has that. I am always amazed at how My creation does not see that humor comes from Me. They think of Me as some beast who lives on a cloud looking for evil-doing sinners to destroy and condemn. If Christians would simply being willing to lose their minds, they wouldn't be so stupid!

wow Father..... That was pretty deep.

And eternal, son! (laughing)

A training up of people who will listen to Him...

2008-08-08T08:39:00.000-07:00

I am training up a nation of people who will be a people who give up their own lives to have a life that I have wanted to give to them. This life that I (that is I, Jehovah; that is My name) is without repentence. Repentence means to give up your own ways and adopt to a life that I have given to you. Today, there are people who live out of their old nature-- the Adamic nature. they reason they are continuously repenting over their old nature-- the very nature that Jesus (the Christ) came to pull them out of is because they do not know that they have been forgiven. I have made a covenant promise with my people and this is without repentence. But these people who do not know Me-- yes, the same ones who prayed a prayer to receive My Spirit into their hearts, these people are exhausting the resources that their hearts and minds are holding onto. I have already forgiven them but they have no idea that they have been forgiven. These same people who take My Word and rebuke other Christians are the same people who need to let go and give to Me (the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last) their arrogance and their pride and their disobedience to My Word. This book that contains pages has not the power to give them the Wisdom that My Spirit will teach them. Of, if they only knew Me as the One spoke to Jesus is the same One who speaks to those who will listen. Believe Me when I say this (says the Lord): knowing the words on paper is not the same as knowing the Spirit who breathed life onto their hearts. Their hearts are troubled and those people who speak the message of the Christ are putting My Spirit out of the church. Yes, out of the church because they have no idea what they are speaking about. They think they are preaching a message but without a relationship they have no idea the damage they are doing a people who want a relationship with Me. There is no relationship without an understanding of the Spirit that lives within their hearts. These church buildings are not building up the body nor are they allowing for My Spirit to bring peace and truth into their hearts. Pastors are really needing to think about what they are speaking about. The message of the Christ is a spiritual message. Most churches are family oriented churches but these buildings neither contain My Spirit or are Spirit-filled. I am beginning to shut down these church buildings. For I am the Lord and My Words are life-giving. My people really need to enjoy their lives but only by enjoying the life that they have been given by Me will bring them the peace into their hearts and minds that I desire for them to have. I am the Lord and that is My name...

Under the influence of the Lord

2008-07-25T02:23:00.000-07:00

Son, what have you been up to today?

Well, Father I have been busy doing all sorts of stuff.

Son, what sort of things are you talking about?

Father, you know what I have been doing.

Son, this is true but I take such joy in hearing you speak to Me about what is happening in your life. It is the highlight of my day!

Father, but if you know what I am thinking, then why don't you just speak to my thoughts in my mind?

(laughing) Son, which thought would you like me to speak to first?

(smiling) I get it, Father. I understand what you mean now. But, Father...

Son, what would you like to talk with me about?

Father, there are times I simply can't hear you. I mean, I try to listen to you speak but it's so hard....

Son, why is it so difficult?

Father, I don't know why but I do know that the times I want you to speak to me, I hear not one thing from you.

(laughing) Son, well...

Father, why are you laughing at me?

Son.... I am laughing because I struggled with these same things when I was here on earth in the flesh. You are so loved by me.... I truly enjoy this time we have together. Do you not know that I have been already speaking to your human spirit about things that pertain to your life?

Father, I don't understand. What does my human spirit have to do with this?

Son, you are asking a question that will bring you much wisdom very soon as you gain understanding of what I am about to say to you. See, son your human spirit has to become aroused inside of you. This happens when your human spirit is able to communicate to your soul what I have communicated to your human spirit. Your human spirit has to be able to influence your soul what I speak to your human spirit. Does this make sense, son?

Yes, I think so. But what does my soul have to do with this?

(smiling) Son, it has EVERYTHING to do with this. When your soul; (which is your mind, will, and emotions) is able to trust the language of your human spirit, truth is produced that brings life that is breathed inside of you. Sadly son, the souls of most of my people are not able to trust the words of their human spirit. Satan has been part of the problem. A big part of the problem. But, unfortunately most of my sheep won't allow me to properly influence their emotions.

Father, how does THAT happen?

(grinning) Son, taking care of one's self spiritually, mentally, and physically is a great way to start.

Father, are you telling me that if I eat better and take better care of my self physically (like going to the gym) that my soul will be able to better trust my human spirit?

As well as Me, son!

Father, you're the Holy Spirit right?

Son, I am Jesus.

Father, I thought you were the Holy Spirit inside of me?

I am.

Well then, if that is true, then where is Jesus?

Son, I am right here with you.

Father, my head hurts again....

(chucking) Son, why don't you let me speak my thoughts and then if you have questions; we can continue this divine exchange. Would that be ok, son?

Father, I guess. I simply want to know you more and have a stronger relationship with you.

Son, what do you think this is bringing to you? Do you now see that everytime you listen to My words you become wiser? Mary was wise because she sat at my feet. That is what you are doing right now. Listening to My words inside of you breathes life into your soul. Your soul must be strengthened by better food, exercise, and living a very balanced, very practical life. See, if you forget to pay your phone bill, then I will remind you about this. However, you may not even realize these are the words I am speaking with you about because you are busy wanting to hear Me speak to you about what a great job you did at work yesterday or about how you are doing a better job than other family members at reaching out to your sick grandmother. Yes, I do want to address that you are working hard at your job. Yes, I will complement you for caring for a sick relative. However, if your bills arent' paid then your mind is not able to rest properly. Remember, Jesus had to rest properly. He was not ministering 24 hours a day for 7 days a week. He was a human being just like you are. He had flesh just like you do. He was tempted just like you are. It is very important you understand this--> My Son had to learn to walk in His humanity first. In other words, He had to learn how to live as a human being first. Yes, He was (and is) the Son of God. Yes, He lived a perfect life. No, he never sinned. But He was tempted by Satan. He was tempted to not follow through on His mission to destroy the work of satan by dying on the cross. If you will recall, He was sweating drops of blood while He was in the garden.

Son, the reason I am telling all of this about Jesus is that He was (and still is) my Son. Just as you were and still are and always will be My son. There isn't one thing I told Jesus that will be kept from you. Does this make sense, son?

Father, I believe it does. You're telling me that Jesus and I had alot in common!

(laughing) Son, not only that; but you both HAVE alot in common!

But God, it's not fair!

2008-06-29T21:23:00.000-07:00

God, I am SOOOO hurt by this! Noone understands... Noone! My feelings are really really hurt! Why are you doing this to me? Don't you understand how much this hurts? Are you even listening to me, God? I thought you loved me... I keep hearing about how loving you are and how you won't allow your "sheep to go astray." But this is not what I expected from you! If you love me, then fix this! Make it go away.......

Our God is a righteous God. He is a fair God. He is the master builder and the one who calls us to build our house on rock rather than sand. However, the things He can (and does) do often seem to be unfair to us. Is this because He doesn't care for us? Is it because He is "picking on us?" Is it because He loves us and is trying to get us to see things from a different perspective (one that is not ours)? The following "email conversation" between a teacher and a former student may bring some better understanding to the question of whether God is "fair" or "unfair"

STUDENT: Ok I`m really lost right now and I dont know what to do. I didn`t know who else to turn to. Ok, my real dad lives in California, my uncle passed away, now my mom wants to leave. Im sick and tired of losing people. It really gives me the feeling that Im hated. Everything started when I was in the 7th grade so when I was with you and has been adding on to now. Im supposed to pray right? But, why does He have to constantly test me? I just want my life to go back to normal.

TEACHER:

The first thing I thought about when I read your email was a microwave. We (you, me, everyone else in the United States) live in a "microwave society" where we want things done fast, easy, and as painless as possible. However, (and you must remember this) God does not work this way. His timetable is eternal (as He is eternal) and He is "timeless" as He can and does exist outside of time--> for God created time. Ashley, you know I have always been straightforward with you about anything you ask me and I think you appreciate that. I won't "sugarcoat" what I say to you because (I think) you are simply seeking truth in this and don't want some "watered-down crap." (like when you add water to milk--> what does it taste like?--> watered-down crap

Now, that being said; there are some things that you need to understand--> It is not always about you... People deal with issues in life and sometimes these issues affect other people. Think about a time over the past year when one of your friends was going through something that bothered you. Did it directly affect you (meaning was your life dramtically altered due to this)? perhaps but not likely. Did it affect you in some way? sure, because you were her (or his) friend. Did you have any control over this situation? Probably not because you weren't that person. Did you want to help them? Probably because you are a caring person.

Now, compare that to this situation. Is it any different? Why, of course it is because this involves your own family. Ashley, you said that "you feel like you're hated" because of these situations: Did your uncle passing away have anything to do with this or is this more because of your family situation (dad in Cali. and mom wanting to leave).

Ashley, I KNOW this is hard to deal with. I have been through so much hell in my past and (as you know) one of the hardest things I had to go through was getting divorced. Noone wants to say they are a failure at anything and it was REALLY hard to go through that. I wouldn't wish divorce on anyone. The emotional toll it took on me was very very difficult. 4 years later, Ashely I look back and see that this was one of life's "tests" to shape me and mold me into the man I am today. See, Ashley tests are what make us into the people God wants us to be. That is why He ALLOWS us to be tested.

Ashley, one of the things I think is important for you to understand about God is that He sees the beginning, the middle, and then end (meaning--> before He created the world, now, and when the world will end; also--> before Ashley was created, Ashley right now as a would-be sophomore, and Ashley 50 years from now); so He has adjusted His time frame to better suit HIS WILL AND PURPOSE for you. Ashley, by allowing you to be tested, He is doing a couple of things:

1. Reminding you that He is God (which you know)
2. Training you up to be a more patient person. Ashley, I know it has been 3 years since you were a student in my class; but I do remember you had a fairly high amount of impatience. One of the things you MUST know about God is that He will continue to allow us to be tested until everything in us that is not of Him (rudeness, unkindness, pride, selfishness, etc...>) no longer has a handle on us. So, Ashley I really think the Lord is wanting you to know that your mom is not mad at you, that she has reasons that you may not even be aware of that are the cause of her wanting to leave, that she love you very much, that you haven't done anything to cause any of this.
3. Letting you know that He (God) has a big call on your life, Ashley. I would not say this unless I really thought it was true but Ashley I really think your life is going to be a life of wonder, of peace, of happiness, of joy, of excitement, of helping (where you help many people), of strength (where you will have your strength in the Lord and not have to worry about the things of this world (TV, internet, cell phones, etc) to make you happy, and that you will have all the desires of your heart happen because God will bring these to you....

Now, Ashley for that to happen you have got to seek to understand Him more. You are doing a good thing asking people who have "been there/done that." I went through much much tough stuff when I was younger and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. So, my whole purpose (one of them, at least) is to help those so that they don't have to go through the bullcrap and tough things I went through.

Regarding your uncle--> death happens. Not much we can do about it. I lost my grandpa when I was in 7th grade and it didn't make a lot of sense as to why he passed. I never got to know him but looking back, I wish I had taken more time to get to know him. Sometimes death is a wakeup call for us to appreciate people we care about even more than we have.

Ashley, praying is a good thing: It is important to come to Him in prayer. I want to ask you a question about this, Ashley: Are you praying for things that you think will get answered? Are you praying for things you have the faith to believe He will answer them?

Here is a verse in the bible that deals with "faith." This is from the book of James, Chapter 1, verses 5 and 6 (from the Amplified Bible)

"(verse 5) if any of you is deficient in wisdom, let him ask of the "giving God (who gives) to everyone liberally and ungrdgingly, wihtout reproaching or faultfinding, and it will be given to him. (verse 6) Only it must be in faith that he hasks with no wavering (no hesitiating, no doubting). For the one who wavers (hestitates, doubts) is like the billowing surge out at sea that is blown hither and thither and tossed by the wind."

Ashley, I share these verses with you because if you are praying to Him, then you should expect that He will answer your prayers. He said--> "ask and you shall receive" (book of Matthew and John), "seek and you will find," "knock and it shall be opened to you. Ashley, do not doubt that He will not answer your prayers. But, remember that sometimes, His way of answering our prayers is by being silent and not giving us the answer we (at the time) necessarily want. Remember that God will always give you the answer you need (which sometimes is not the same as what you may want). To have this make more sense to you, Ashley--> allow me to share something with you about my life. WHen I was a jr. and sr. in high school I dated a girl I really liked. She lived in Missouri and I lived in Ohio (at the time) so, it was very tough to see her. She and I corresponded (kept it touch) through letters and phone calls (email had not started yet--> was 3 years away from existing!) so it was VERY difficult to have an everyday communication. Phone bills were high because long distance calls cost $$ per minute. I REALLY liked this girl (thought I loved her) and was able to visit her for a week my freshman year in college and a week my sophomore year in college. I prayed and prayed that God would put us together in a relationship that would last for the rest of our lives (marriage). She and I laughed alot, liked sports, were both Christians, saw the positive in most things, and enjoyed communicating with eachother--> it should have worked, right? Well, the PROBLEM with her and me was that when we were together (in person) we argued CONSTANTLY. We could not seem to get along at all. She was everything I thought I wanted; until I hung out with her for a week. Then, I couldn't stand to be around her. Needless to say, the relationship was not "meant to be."

But I prayed for it to work! So, Ashley why did it not work? Because the thing I was praying for God to do was not what I should have been praying for. I should have been praying for Him to give me more "wisdom and understanding of Him (God)." I really think that is what you need to be asking Him for, Ashley. If I were you, I would pray that everyday and also ask Him to increase your love for Him, and to increase the sound of His voice in your heart (so that you could hear His voice more clearly inside your heart). He wants you to speak with Him Ashley but He also wants you to listen to Him when He speaks. I do believe that the things I have said here are things the Lord wants you to know. Ashley, God is fair and God is just but He also is a Father to you and me and everyone else. As any good father does, He will say things that we may not want to necessarily hear but these things are things that He wants us to know because it is what we need to hear. God will not always say, "Ashley, I love you. You are a wonderful person."

Does He think this about you, Ashley? yes, of course He does but He also is wanting to train you up to be a more patient person and the only way we are capable of being patient is to understand what patience is. Below is another scripture verse (James, chapter 1, verse 12) I think will help you understand why you are going through these things:

"Blessed (happy, to be envied) is the man (or woman) who is patient under trial and stands up under temptation, for when he (or she) has stood the test and been approved, he will receive [the victor's] crown of life which God has promised to those who love Him."

Ashley, God has some wonderful things planned for you in the near future. Now, this could be this week, this month, or during this next year. I'm not saying when but one of the things I know abou tGod is that when we are tested to the point of frustration and hurt and anger, He usually has something wonderful waiting for us. You just keep being you, Ashley. Stay faithful to Him, keep enjoying life the way you were meant to enjoy life.

Lastly, Ashley I want to give you something to think about: (To put this in perspective) If this were meant to hurt you (these tests), then is it possible that God is allowing these things to happen so that He can strengthen you? The human body is strengthened when the muscle fibers are actually torn (hurt) during a workout. Then they rebuild and repair but stronger. that is how muscles get bigger. God is trying to strengthen you, Ashley and when this happens, it can be a bit painful. Just let God be God, Ashley. He doesn't need any help doing His job. You just keep being Ashley...

If you want to become wise (which I know you do) then you have to ask God for Him to give you wisdom; for He is creator of all things that are good. He is wisdom and He is wanting to give you wisdom, Ashley. His plans for you are great, the life He has waiting for you has already begun but He is going to train you in some very unique and wonderful ways. Right now, the testing you are going through is molding you and shaping you to become a very strong person emotionally but ALSO to have a respectful fear of the Lord. The bible says "the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom." You already acknowledge that God is up to something, here Ashley so you are doing the right thing! You are seeking some understanding to what is happening in your life :) And that is a REALLY good thing! Get to know God more by asking Him for the things I told you to ask Him for earlier in this email. If you do that everyday, I assure you that a GREAT sense of peace is going to come
into your life and you are going to be so happy and satisfied with your life over the course of the next year. Don't worry about a thing because your life (through all of this) is going to become the normal life God wants you to have and it is going to be MUCH MUCH better then what you thought it would be :)

I speak about wisdom so much because it is very important. Below are some scriptures which will help you:

Proverbs 4: 5--> "Get skillful and godly Wisdom, get understanding (discernment, comprehension, and interpretation); do not forget and do not turn back from the words of my mouth."

Proberbs 4:6--> "Forsake not (Wisdom) and she will keep, defend, and protect you; love her and she will guard you."

Proverbs 4:7--> " The beginning of Wisdom is: get Wisdom (skillfull and godly Wisdom)! [For skillfull and godly Wisdom is the principal thing.] And with all of you have gotten, get understanding (discernment, comprehension, and interpreation)"

Probers 4:8--> "Prize Wisdom highly and exalt her, and she will axalt you and promote you; she will bring you honor when you embrace her."

Proberbs 4:9--> "She (wisdom) will give to your head a wreath of gracefulness; a crown of beauty and glory will she deliver to you."

1st Corinthians 3:19--> "For this world's wisdom is foolishness (absurdity and stupidity) with God, for it is written, He lays hold of the wise in their (own) craftiness

June 27th

2008-06-27T12:41:00.000-07:00

Son, I want you to read "Numbers 19."

But Father, I just opened the bible up to this page on accident.

Son, do you think this was an accident?

Oh, I see where you're going with this. Ok, Father I will read it.

Son, remember that it doesn't matter what you read in My Word. I will speak to you through any part of it......

Ok, Father; I have read it and now I want to read some Psalms and then some proverbs.....

I want you to read Numbers 20.

Why, Father?

Because it is important for you to understand that what I am going to tell you is going to be about both Numbers 19 and 20.

Ok, Father....

Father, I have read them both.

Son, now if you will recall what was written there, I spoke about the ritual of the law which I had commanded.

Yes, Father I remember reading this.

Son, tell me; have you enjoyed hearing what I am speaking with you about?

Father, I believe I should say "yes."

(laughing) Son, I realize that there are some things that may not (at first) seem that interesting that I speak to you about because not everything I say may seem as though I am addressing your life. This is not true because everything I speak to you about involves you because you are life and I am speaking to you about My creation; My life. Always remember that I have a point when I am speaking to you about something and that it is important to allow me to finish what I want to speak to you about before you ask me questions. Do I not know your questions before you ask them? Of course I do but I still want to be able to reason with you about a specific question you may have. Now, does this make sense to you?

Father, it's as if you knew exactly what was on my mind....

(laughing) well, son; that is what Fathers do. They can sense how their sons are feeing and what their sons are thinking. Son, do you know why I wrote about such details in Numbers 19?

I'm not sure I do, Father...

Son, it is important to know that the law was not able to be filled by men (or women). That is why Jesus came to destroy the law. The law was not necessary after My Son shed His blood for all mankind. Numbers 20 shows that Moses could fulfill a simple request I made to Him to take a rod and assemble the congregation and "tell the rock before their eyes to give forth its water." Moses did not listen to Me and chose to smote the rock twice with the rod I gave to Him. Son, because Moses was disobedient to a specific and direct command I gave to Him, there was a consequence to his choice. Do you understand what I am saying to you?

Yes, Father I do. But what about the other times in the old testament where people were disobedient? You didn't do the same thing to them?

Son, there are always consequences for people's actions. Do you know what happens to a bee if the flowers which produce the pollen for the bee to take are cut down with a lawnmower?

They have to go somewhere else then, Father.

Son, you are right. But you know this. However there are some things that happen in the spiritual realm that they natural eyes do not see and the natural ears do not hear. These things are not necessary to understand (for now) but it is important to know that there are consequences to every action a person does. Do you understand this, son?

I think so, Father.

Son, Moses heard Me directly tell Him to do something. It was My desire that the people he was to assemble have their faith increase by seeing water come out of the rock by simply saying to the rock to "give forth its water." But Moses did not do this and because He disobeyed a direct command, their were consequences. Now, My Son Jesus freed people of their sins but there is something else I want you to understand about this.

What is it, Father?

When you drink from a fountain, you know water is going to come up. When they drank from this rock I spoke of that Moses smote with the rock, they had no idea this rock would produce any water. They had no idea that this rock was water that would give them life. I am the rock and noone can drink from Me unless they proclaim the name of Jesus and in their heartbeat the name of Jesus can be heard.
Huh? Father, how can the name Jesus be heard in a person's heartbeat?

(laughing) Son, as I said to you before there are things that happen that the natural ears do not hear. ....

Father, I love you.

Son, you are greatly loved by Me.

JUNE 6th

2008-06-06T23:52:00.000-07:00

Son, why are you inspired to write when I am speaking to you right now?

I was only trying to tell people what I wanted them to hear about you.

Son, tell me why are doing this...

Father, I have been without you for so long that I wanted to share to others the joy I have for you.

Son, why don't you ask Me to teach you to hear what I want to say to you?

Father, you ask me questions that you know the answer to. I always feel I have no one who understands me. I ask You speak to me, but then I become confused and don't understand what You are saying to me.

Son, why do you feel I am not speaking to you the words I want you to hear?

Because I don't hear you speak to me the things I ask you to speak to me about. I have no idea why it has become so hard for me to hear you. I simply want questions in my life answered but you refuse to answer them. I don't get it, Father. You say, "ask and you shall receive. Seek and you will find."

Son, is the student greater than the Master? Can a baby explain to his or her parents the wisdom of life? Can a baby cub teach her mother how to protect her young? These things are not possible. Son, the animals in nature hear My voice in everyday events; yet my sons and daughters don't hear my voice in their hearts.

Father, I don't understand what you are saying. I don't understand what you are saying. You are speaking to me words that make no sense. I asked you a question and I'm not getting an answer.

Son, and what answer is it that you are looking for? One that you want to hear or one that I want to tell you?

I want to hear you answer my questions, Father.

Son, if you will be still; then you will know that I am the God of Jacob, the God who raised Lazarus from the dead, the God who breathes life into your body that has been so denied of spiritual oxygen. Son, when you speak to me, much of your life I have required you to be still to simply learn how to be obedient to my voice. Son, it is through your obedience to My voice that My voice begins to resonate in your spirit-man. My spirit breathes life into your mind, will and emotions. These very words I speak are coming from the same spirit that raised Jesus (the Christ) from the dead. These words I speak to you, My dear son; these very words are the same words that were before the beginning and will be after the end. Does this make sense to you, my son?

I'm even more confused now. I simply want you to answer questions about my life but you are not doing what I ask.

Son, stop being stupid and listen to My words. I am bringing forth truth into your spirit-man which is restoring your soul; the very soul that was brought forth into this world by My spirit; which makes all things come into existence. You say you want Me to answer your questions, but am I not answering the question right now as to why you have for so long struggled with your own life? Does My word not speak of losing your own life to gain the life I desire to give to you?
Son, your whole life you have been performance driven. You have driven yourself insane by trying to please me through reading the bible, through praying repeatedly, through continuing to do things your way without allowing My Spirit to assist you.

Father, this is true what you are saying.

Son, of course this is true. For I am the way the truth and the life. Son, if you will notice, I am not speaking to you in "scriptureze."

"Scriptureze?"

Son, why do you always want Me to quote scripture to you when the words you are hearing are what you have been so longing for? See, most Christians say they want to hear My voice and to know me more but they don't. All they want is to make themselves look better by quoting words from a book, but have no understanding of the meanings of these words.

Father, I don't....

Son, let me finish what I am saying to you. If you will sit at my feet as Mary did when she sat at the feet of Jesus, I will not have to address you as a Martha who tried to please me by her actions. For I am already pleased by what My Son did on the cross. That pleased me and completed the necessary task I sent Him to do on this earth so that my dear children would have fellowship with Me. A student can not learn why 10 + 10 = 100 if he is not willing to listen to the teacher explain why. A pilot can not learn how to fly if she is not willing to listen to the teacher show her how to operate the controls of the plane. Do you understand what I am saying?

A little, Father....

Son, a man cannot exist in a relationship with a woman if he is not willing to listen to her speak. Just because he sits by her side does not mean he has any more understanding of her heart. Now, as I speak to you; I occasionally will use my reference book to illustrate a point. "As Jesus told His disciples, My sheep listen to my voice; I know them and they follow me. I know them and they are with Me."

Now son, these words I have just quoted also means this: sheep that to not listen to My voice; I do not know them and they do not follow me. I do not know them and they are not with me.

Father, how can you misquote these words from the very scriptures you wrote?

Son, when a student is in school; does the teacher not speak about what will happen if the rules of the class are not followed? Likewise, I can speak about sheep who are not of mine just as easily as I can speak about sheep who are mine. My words bring forth life. But too many people want to contain Me to a book. It is true that I inspired people to write a book that is the Word but I AM the Word. As I told my prophet John: "For in the beginning was the Word. And the word was with God, was God. He was with God in the beginning."

Son, a person can quote these words until they are blue in the face and they will have no greater understanding of what these words mean. Unless you allow the Word that is within you; (the very Word that was made flesh as Jesus the Christ) to speak to you what these words mean, you will have no more understanding of who I am than a man who talks nonstop to his wife but refuses to listen to her speak.

This same Word that was in the beginning is what is speaking to you right now. I am the Word.

Father, my head hurts....

Well of course it does and that is a good thing. My words are sharper than any two-edged sword and the pain that you feel is your flesh being separated from your spirit by My words. Your flesh has been so lied to by satan that your mind has been baptised into death. There is a baptism of life but you must also know there is a baptism of death for satan seeks to seek, kill, and destroy. The words he speaks kill. His words destroy the understanding of who I am. Satan is a very bad devil. For from the time you were born, he began his attacks on your mind. You were without my spirit then so he not only spoke to your mind, but he also spoke to your heart. You had no way to defend yourself against the devil's words. It was like a football team trying to stop the offense from scoring but with no defense on the field to do this. You began to believe these lies and eventually, you were convinced that the lies satan spoke of were actually truths. My angels protected you from death and yes, I only allowed Satan so much pull on the leash by which he is chained to but (dear son), you must remember that I gave the devil permission to do all these things. Do you understand these words I have spoken to you?

Father, my head hurts so much....

Son, you must be patient for this pain is necessary. I do not give spiritual band-aids. I give my words which bring forth life. This pain you feel is purging out the lies that you once believed. It is healing your mind of the filth that once existed. A son must lose his mind to know and accept that he has been adopted into My family. Most sons never know this. They walk around as aimlessly as a donkey without a master. Son, this is beginning to make sense to you, isn't it?

Yes, Father but what about the questions I want answered?

Son, a checkbook is hard to balance if one cannot add or subtract. Likewise, the questions you want Me to answer will be answered in due time. Son, truth doesn't come from reading the bible. All that does is give knowledge about Me. But this does not so much as give you one drop of understanding of who I am. I made you in My image and I am a jealous God. I long to have time with My children but I don't compete with cell phones, tv, internet, parties.

Father, are you telling me that I do all these things and that is why I have had so much trouble hearing your voice?

Son, My disciples frustrated Me greatly with their lack of understanding of the things I was speaking to them. But as they grew to listen to me, they began to be filled with wisdom. Did Peter's shadow heal the sick because he was any more spiritual than Luke, Paul, or David? Son, great understanding of what is the width, length, depth, and height of My love does not come from attending church meetings, not from singing worship songs, not from praying (sometimes without ceasing), not from memorizing scripture, not from being an elder or a deacon. None of these things will produce any fruit that will last. For the branch cannot bear fruite by itself, it must remain in the vine.

Father, I feel like I have failed you.

Son, why do you feel this way?

Father, I have not gotten the answers I asked for and now I feel as though you are disappointed in me.

Son, do not feel this way for you have done the good thing and sat at My feet. A good son listens to His Father. But you must continue to wait on Me. Wait on Me with your whole life. I will never leave you and never forsake you. I will continue to be your guide and your protector. If you will seek Me with your whole heart, you will never have to worry about your life for I will give you understanding of all things concerning your life.

Father, how do I do this?

Son, rest now. Allow these words to resonate throughout your soul. Think about the things I have said to you. As the days, progress I will speak to you again. Son, you can always speak to Me and I will always listen. I may not always answer (right away) but know that you will hear My voice....

Father, I love you so much.

Son, I love you too...

May 10th, 2008

2008-05-10T08:02:00.000-07:00

Father, You are the majestic One. Your holiness preceded the existence of time. Your countenance radiates brighter than the noontime sunlight. The beauty of your glory transcends into the hearts of men and women and children. Thank you for your patience with me. Thank you for blessing me with a life that is worth living. Thank you for freeing me from the past. Thank you for always holding onto me, even as I tried to let go. Thank you for Your words. Thank you for your understanding. Father, I don't know the things you plan to do and that is ok. I know that where I go you will go with me God. What I say you will give to me. When I smile it will be because of the joy that has been provided by You. I love you, Father...

"Son, I want to speak about what I want My children to do. You can't imagine what it is like to see My children run to the places they run without the direction I desire to give to them. Oh, how I want to speak to them! I want to breathe onto them My words. The words I speak to them are not the words they are hearing. Many are trying to please Me but do they not know that I (the Lord) Am? I am already pleased with what My Son has done. My children can not please me anymore than what My son did. They need to know that I am pleased already.

"Father, what must they do?"

"Son, when I want to talk with them about My plans for them only, they want to hear Me speak about the things they want Me to talk about. For the do not understand that the words I speak have substance and will not go unfinished.

"Father, what do you mean by this?"

"Son, you are not going off on a tangent by asking Me these questions. I want to reason with My children. My children are My sheep and I am their shepherd. As a shephard tends and cares for His sheep, I tend and care for My children.

"Father, I don't understand...."

"Son, you have to let Me finish what I want to say. You are starting to feel that you are not listening to My words and that is causing you do not understand what I am saying to you. See, I have to be able to reason (with) you and that requires you to speak both to and with Me (the Lord) but for Me to reason with you requires you to listen to everything I am saying to you. Ask Me why I am speaking this to you."

"Ask you what, Father?"

"Son, ask Me why I am speaking this to you."

"Father, why are you speaking this to me?"

"Son, it's like you are not thinking, knowing, or perceiving that I am speaking to you when (in actuality) I am speaking both to and with you. When you let Me finish what I want to say, you are better able to understand and know Me. Son, I can't go out and tell you what time it is if you don't believe a clock is where I want you to look at to see the time. A clock that runs correctly runs because of the power that is provided to it. The power comes into the clock when it is correctly assembled. If a clock is incorrectly assembled, it will not work properly. The hearts of my children need to be healed first for Me to speak to them in speech that will make sense to them. Let me ask you a question, son."

"Yes, Father?"

"Does this make sense to you what I am speaking to you?"

"A little, Father."

"Son, now you can understand why I was often alone with My Father when I was here on earth in human form. "

"I don't understand, completely, what you are saying, Father."

"Son, the reason I spent time alone away from people was because they often annoyed me and bothered me greatly with their unbeliefs."

"Annoyed you? Bothered you? How can this be, Father? You are the Lord who was sent here to reveal the truth and die for us!"

"Son, this is true what you are saying but you must remember that I was a spiritual man who lived as a natural man. I had limitations that I had to adhere to. I became tired, I felt pain, I was hungry, I was thirsty. Dealing with people all day wore me out and I needed to spend time with My Father."

"Father, I think I am beginning to understand."

"Son, My desire is to have My children sit at My feet in the same way children do in a kindergarten class as their teacher talks with them. Teachers do this when they want to give their plans to their children but mostly they want to talk with their children. A kindergarten teacher does this especially well and the children who respond to this sit and listen well. Many of My children do not do this well. Instead of sitting they are off and running to places I have not chosen for them to go. Is the student greater than the master?

"Father, if these plans you have are for your glory than why do you want me to speak to you?

"Son, when you deserted Me, I did not desert you. And I have many more things to tell you. When you ask Me a question, you must wait on Me. You must be still and know that I am God. I am the same God who sent one of My angels to wrestle with Jacob. Son, you have so wanted to hear My voice, but you have not wanted to listen to My words. I speak to you as a man talks to a man. I speak to you in ways that you can understand if you will let Me speak to you the way I want to speak. For you are loved by Me and am I not the Lord who gives the desires to a parent to teach a child the ways of this world? Am I not the Lord brings forth understanding of My truth by speaking to my children through everyday events? Most people cannot see this or understand this so they surely cannot hear the hidden wisdom; the deeper things that are hidden from most of My children. Do I speak to you in King James speech? Then why do I need to speak to My children by quoting scripture. My children were made in My image. I am a jealous God and I desire to speak to My children in a way that will bring peace and understanding of who I am to them. My yolk is easy and My burden is light. If My children will sit at My feet and listen without any agenda, then they will begin to understand that I speak in impressions, thoughts, images, urges. The hearts of My children are needing to be healed."

"Father, why do the hearts need to be healed?"

"Son, it is through listening to their hearts, that My children will hear Me speak My words to them..."

2008-05-08T12:13:00.000-07:00

Father, I want to thank You. You hear me and open my eyes to so much, Father. You listen to me in ways that noone can. You show me the things that tug at my heart and speak to me in ways that I can not express in earthly words. You are my Father and I love You. Father, thank you for being here with me and for me. You teach me the ways of You, even when I don't listen. You continue to guide me and shape me and draw me towards you. You calm my storms (often that I create with my own foolishness and stupidity).

Father, you are always on my mind. You have longed for the relationship between You and me to be the way You want. I thought my ways should be your ways for so long. You calmly speak through the storm. You have called me to different places and such. You have restored my heart. Thank you, Father....

"I speak of things that I wish people would talk with Me the way they talk in everyday language. I speak about things noone knows about but many people want to hear. One of the ways people can hear Me is to listen to their hearts. I speak to the hearts of my children. They are beloved by Me. I draw near to them and wait as they often don't know how to draw near to Me. It is not by My choice they not draw near to Me. How I long fellowship with My children. When I speak, My people do not let Me speak to the things I want to speak to them about. For am I not the Lord God who brings them strength? Freedom is knowing that you are hearing My voice speak with you. Freedom is walking outside and knowing that I am ordering you footsteps. Whomever thinks about My Word is who loves Me. Whoever lives by My Word that I have hidden in their hearts is who loves Me."