Thinking about my feelings

Father, I prostrate myself before you. Oh, how I love you. Speak to me dear Father; for I am waiting to hear the sound of your voice. It fills Me with your love and your touch...

Son, I know you want me to speak to you about Me, but when you learn to hear Me speak to you through your everyday life you will then begin to understand that it is I (yes, that is MY name); I will show you more about your life. It is through this understanding of your life that you will be better able to understand about Me.

People don't want to hear the Truth, they only want to hear Me say things that are familiar to them. These things, those things, anything that I speak about is at first unfamiliar to My people. My people say they want to know Me, but they don't. They say to Me they love me but they don't know how. For if they knew that the only way they are capable of loving is by allowing Me to teach and show them what love truly is; they they would begin to know and recognize and understand that there is a better way than the way they go. The path they walk is not My path.

Father, I think I am hearing what you are saying.

Son, are you still frustrated? Why are you frustrated?

Father, i am frustrated?

Son, why is this?

Father, I am frustrated because I hear you at times and then I don't hear you and ge tconfused.

Son, I don't author confusion and i don't seek to make you feel this way. Let go of your feelings and start thinking. Think of it this way; you rode a bike when you were little but had trouble at first. You needed training wheels and wanted to cling ot those training wheels all the time. WHen I showed you how to ride without training wheels, you began to panic; just as Peter did when he was on the water. You are hearing Me; My voice but as this increases so must your trust for not only what I say but how I say it. Son, I love you and you know this but you need to stop being stupid. Stop complaining and whining to Me. I have told you over and over that you are hearing My voice. Why do you keep doubting Me? Am I the one who told you you were not worthy to hear Me?

No, Father you are not.

Well of course I'm not. DO not allow your mind to interfere with the mind I gave you. (laughing)

Father, I love you.

Son, is that what you really want to tell Me?

Father, but I do.

Now son, why don't you really tell me what is on your mind?

Father, I do love you.

Son (laughing), are you not hearing Me? I know this. Stop telling Me what you want Me to hear. Remember, I know you better than you know yourself?

Huh?

Son, there are actually people who will look at Me and say, why do you want a relationship with me? You don't even know me! But, son; what they do not realize is that I know these people better than they know themselves.

Father, that saddens me.

Son, I have dealt with this kind of bullcrap for years.

Father, did you just say bullcrap?

Son, (laughing) why yes I did. Does that help you understand how i feel about this?

Father, (smiling) it help me to understand what you think about this.

Son (smiling), you make me feel good when you say that. Now, you're thinking!

A life of disappointments

Son, what have you been thinking about today?

Father, is that you?

Son, of course it is! I'm glad you are starting to recognize how I speak to you.

Father, is that you?

Son, I have always tried to let you know I am here. Why don't you trust that it is Me who is speaking to your mind, right now?

Father, I think it is you who is speaking to me. I hope I'm not crazy and that my mind isn't playing tricks on me.

Son, that's what I have been trying to tell you: you have to let Me speak to your mind the way I want to. You are trusting My thoughts more because you are able to readily recognize Me more consistently. Know that these thoughts I have put in your mind are My thoughts. Your thoughts have begun to accept My thoughts because you have allowed Me to take away from you your perception (in your mind) as to how I do things. Does this make sense, son?

Father, if this is you speaking to me; then I want you to keep speaking to me. Would you tell me about what "grace" means?

(laughing) Son, why don't you just let me speak to you about the things I want to speak to you about. It is through these things that I want to speak to you about that I am better able to reveal Myself to you the way I want you to see, know, and recognize Me as.

Father, are you telling Me that I can't think for myself?

Son (laughing and shaking head), no no.... That 's not at all what I'm saying. You are becoming an overcomer; just as My son (Jesus) did. He was able to overcome the temptations of this world by fellowshipping with Me. He was not born with all the abilities He had. He had the ability to gain an intimate understanding of Me--> which was in his DNA. This "thing" is also in your DNA too, son...

Father, what are you saying?

Son, a person who wants to leave his family and go into ministry can't simply do it with the understanding of how to do it. There has to be a training for this. Jesus (the Christ) was trained by the same Spirit that lives within you to hear My voice. THIS is how one is able to walk with Me. I want My people to be able to walk with Me. This will only happen by being trained how to hear My voice. It is possible to hear the voice of the Almighty....

Father, why me?

Son, why not you? You gave up religion; which is the absence of relationship. You gave up your idea of how I behave. You gave up your way of wanting to force your mind to believe that you are a sinner and that I did not give up My life for you. These things have to happen first before one can accept that he or she can fellowship with Me....